2024-12-06 05:34:15 UTC
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ive been making music obsesisvely since i was maybe 15? who knows whenever ill actually share it.... i will soon tho...
i shared it maybe twice or so before, on twitter & soundcloud, but i deleted it because i hated the constant checking for new followers while getting none (obviously bc i didnt advertise myself) - but
this time i have my own website and twitter is dying... the time feels more right
i just hope to figure out some sort of server side database to access through this website so i dont have to post it on soundcloud or bandcamp because they have data tracking and it's not in my control
but at the same time, is there any point being that obssesive? its probably going to end up on youtube whether i like it or not, so if that's the case i should post it on there myself...?
well i'll definitely put it on peertube if i do...? maybe i shouldnt make a yt tho, hmmm... more followers initially then maybe move over?
the moment an individual shares their creation, it no longer remains theirs alone to experience and contain: anyone can use, copy, steal... even recreate if given enough of a method ... yet why keep to oneself if one of their greatest passions is secret from all those which surround them...
this makes life feel less purposeful, as the content of what is valued in the individual's mind does not reflect in the individual's life
u dont need big words and flavorful sounding speech to get ur poitn acros dumbass
yeah well basicaly im scared of the unknown that would ultimately make my life feel more valuable to me, sharing the music i've merely kept to myself that genuinely matters to me
theres also the extreme jealously of people i think r better than me at making music,... but yk what i need to understand is despite there being millions of amazing musians, theres billions of listeners. i'm not "special" and i will be one of 50+ artists people listen to if they even do listen
it's just an expirence to share with others........... plus maybe u can make a minimal profit off it idk capialism yeah